Realization of Reality

Last week I have been spending time with corporate engineering group. I am very happy to spend time in this group to see what they do and what I can learn more. To my surprise, despite the manager's well done organization of my stay, the staff were not really helpful. I am sure their work load has something to do with it but what I have noticed is that the level of ego is very high. A know it all group that don't have time for any one else! Had I not studied engineering myself, I would have been fooled in thinking that these people are the smartest individuals in the company! Nevertheless, I found them lacking in a number of qualities that I am glad to have learnt in the past few years in my non-engineering related positions!
What I had pictured in my mind of what an engineering position would look like and the level of technical work associated with it had little resemblance to what I saw in reality in this group.
Come to think of it in the past few years, I tortured myself of why I am not doing what I thought was to be real engineering work. I put my family and my pishi in the never ending drama of "I am wasting my life".
The more I spend time with group, the more I realize that I can do their job with better efficacy and efficiency! The realization of what I have been doing in the past few years, have made a better person of me than had I stayed in engineering department only.
This coming week is the last week of the program and I must say, this last department, has been the icing of the cake!
I am not sure what will happen to me by the end of this week but I know that this full circle had made my life so much more in peace with myself! There has been times, that I would question myself and my abilities and would be depressed why I wasn't given the chance to work in Corporate engineering department at my company and now that I am going through it, I realized, how lucky I was that I never got picked. Had I have been picked, I might not have gotten the chance to go through this program and to even get accepted in this program, as I would not have had the skills required to do so.